Where are you?

Tell me my dear Aunt, Where are you?

Are you there behind that pink curtain?

Are you busy with shopping green bangles?

Are you busy with cooking my favorite dish?

I explored in each and every corner of my mind

I explored…But I could not find you anywhere

I am afraid you keep hiding yourself from me

Are you? If yes, I beg you not to do ….

You know, how much do you mean to me?

You are my model, my guide and my mentor

You brought the first glimpse of love in my life

How can I forget you? How can I infer it?

Till now, I was happy and courageous…

I had a comforting feel in my inner soul…

It’s great to have a feeling of someone’s care

But now, I feel loneliness… I am alone ….

I am alone in this entire world…….

I am afraid whether this world is conspiring…

Conspiring to keep my loving aunt away

Hey world, I will not let you do that…

I will not let anyone to separate my aunt

She is mine.., She is my own… She is only mine

God has given her to me as a gift…

She is a gift given to me from heaven

Dear Aunt… Can you listen me?

If yes… please don’t let this erring world

Don’t let it to make me live without you

Come back… to be a part of my life forever

For the one who is really special

For the one who is really special, I really want to kneel down before you

I always tried to find fault in you; I tried to make you feel that you are guilty

I always tried to fancy that you are the ground behind every failure in my life

I always complained against you that you will never and cannot understand me

I did all these by forgetting that you are the only one who loved me very much

At times I forgot the fact that you are the only one who cared me when I needed it

I never tried to understand you and made all those silly complaints against you

I really forgot the fact that you are the one who is really special to me

Now, I am before you, kneeling down before you to ask your pardon,

I am not sure anyone in this world can forgive me for all those pains

Yet, I believe you will forgive me as you have done in all these years to me

And now I understand, you forgive me, you care me, and you love me and….

And that is the reason; I call you as someone who is really special to me

Yes, you are the one who is really special to me and I want to tell you

I want to tell you that I understand you, I love you and I am here to care you

I want to become the “ someone who is really special to you”…….

I am sad, but

I am sad; I am the saddest among the intact world.

I want to be happy but I am not when all others are

I believed the entire world conspire for my success

But I realize, I was wrong, none conjure for others

All machinate for their own success, not for others

Even I desire and complot to become a success

All want to be success; that is the cabal within all

Might be that confederacy lead people to live life

I had a lot of pains in the past, all might had pain

But my past pains induced ripe resolutions later

Now also I feel all my anguishes are for future grace

Such altering go through of mine is a lesson for my life

So now I welcome all my hurts with receptive mind

I anticipate the presence of someone in my life

To descend and switch my botherations into joy

I don’t know who is that, I trust that might be God.

Belief

What is a belief? Is it not a burden

Is belief makes man bound to someone.

Relations are always bound by belief.

It compels to give up one's wishes

A wife believes the words of her man

Gets hurt when that belief doesn't keep

She losses her valuable time and joy

by waiting him to safeguard the belief

A kid believes his father on his promise

And get spoiled when he finds it in vain

Beliefs are and should be always blind

One forgets his or her self on belief

Losing their own self leads to failure

So belief becomes the cause of failure

So it is better not to believe anyone

Since you will fail with a blind belief

A successful life is not impossible

To have it, one should believe oneself

That is the only belief which can gain

Now I know the secret of success is this.

Commitment

I am sad, I am sad, I am sad

As Antonio used to be sad.

Dont ask me the grounds, why

As I dont know what it is

Somewhere in my mind, I desire

I desire to explore the world

Desire to find the world as it is

I wish to visit the world wonders

It includes a long list as

The pyramids and their accumulation

The Himalayas and its heights

The steppes and their loneliness

The Aral sea and the dry sand

The Rockies and Andie's with it

The amazon river with its duration

The fascinating woods that grow there

The great lakes with all its elegance

The heavy rains there in Chirapunji

The Eschimos and their snow houses

The blue whales in their natural ground

My mind is not happy without it

Hope the exposure open my mind.

I really want to come up in life

without any pain that haunts me

I want to know only one thing

What is the reason for unhappiness.

I know only one thing, almost all are unhappy

Finally I found the reason, it is commitment

Notion

When I was lonely, my mind asked me to close my eyes

I closed the outer eyes and then alive the inward eyes.

While opening I have seen a lot of thoughts which gaze

Gaze at me with entangling doubts as if I am in a maze.

Mazes are always confusing and I asked myself savour

Why the life does not accompany all the wishes in favour?

Was a little messy to have the rejoinder for all my savour

So I asked the creator, who made us in versatile flavour.

My quaere was never quaking to the creator since he expected

Expected me to have an outrageous savour as such a suspected

So he unwind my susceptible thoughts and feelings as expected

Now I found myself relaxed with a mind that has been impressed.

The very sensation arose in my mind was about confusing

Every knot in every mind has been proved to be imbibing

I learnt a big lesson from the muddle I had in this morning

Only the one who created me and you can only be comforting.

I want to be with you

I love the moments I spend with you,

I love the thrill I feel when you are with me

I feel those moments as something special

I find myself as if in heaven when I am with you

I can say one thing with my best heart, that

I am the happiest person when you are with me.

I find you as a gift, given from heaven, when

While crying for solace among my pain

I believe, all my prayers are answered
The Almighty listened my tears, and

I have been given you as my Love and Life

I did, do and will do expect a lot from you

I find a vast happiness lying before me with you

I want to give life to all your dreams and desires in me

I want to say, you are my hope, and conclude it as

I love you my dear, I love you.