Adieu Dear Blue Bird

Dear blue bird, look, how unlucky I am

I missed that glimpse when he passed

Kept my eyes open all day and night, but

He passed on that moment of misfortune

I was vigilant till that very moment, but

The tiresome of long strive made it a miss

Being lamentable, heart wishes to follow

But, the most doomed, I have no wings

Oh bird, I can’t fly to catch his glimpse

Why only birds blessed with wings

Why not me, who like to fly like a bird

I say oh bird; you are the luckiest on earth

You have a panoramic view as you fly

No need to wait for a glimpse of love

Being deprived of a panorama, I am lost

Lost in this deep forest in search of my man

Crying out his name in a voice that echoes

Not sure, whether I go in the right way

There is something that comforts me

The thought of him, who searches me

Putting a pause on my call, I listen

Listen to hear my name called by him, but

there was only my own voice that echoed

Bird, can you tell me something,

Are we going in opposite directions?

Bird, how can I understand   your speech?

You do have a panorama, but no words

I do have words but no bird's eye view.

Trying to reach the horizon, I couldn’t do it

Horizon was not kind enough to wait for me

It displaced itself whenever I reached it

Where to go, east, west, North or south?

Bird, who told you that earth, is round?

 If it’s true, all ways must lead me to one place

Some way or the other, I shall reach him

Now, I’m not hesitant to Set apart for it.

On a jaunt, I say you adieu oh dear bird

Being Immaculate

“The environment we live has a definite impact on our personality” is a very well known fact and is being proved by participatory research. Today, I have a story for endorsing this truth. The heroes of my story are two twin parrots who lived on one of the branches of a tall Banyan tree in a village. Once day, both the twins fell down from the nest during heavy rains and bad climate. Their mother could not save them. One parrot was saved by some thieves, whereas the other one was saved by some nuns.

One day, the crowned prince of the kingdom visited the village and he met the parrot who lived with thieves. The parrot did not have anything good at his tongue and he was abusing the prince. When the prince tried to catch the parrot it flew away. To the Prince’s astonishment he could see the same parrot when he reached the next town and now, the parrot was really loving and it welcomed the crowned prince with respect.

Prince was surprised and asked for details and the nuns told him the reality. We can see a similar incident in Bible. When Jesus was caught by the soldiers, Peter and John were there with him. When they reached the prosecution place, John went inside with Jesus, whereas Peter preferred to stay out of the place. Jesus, even though locked with chain was able to protect John from sin as he was with him.

On the other hand, Peter could not control himself and had to deny being a disciple of the Christ. He had to face this situation for the reason of choosing an unwanted environment. Similarly we also can face such a situation. To become a teetotaler, we must stay out of the reach of alcohol. This is same with every aspects of life. To be immaculate, we need to stay out of sin and other unwanted situations.

Where is the shelter

I am afraid I am afraid I am afraid

I am afraid of this barbarous world

I look for a shelter from adversity

In darkness, eyes went for a gander

Wish to flee from pain and hardship

I think of an asylum where I can stay

Devoid of felicity, tears left my eyes

Those drops inspired me to depart

Leaving this vicious world forever

Renouncing this spirit, I look for peace

Calmness, that leads into the ultimate

Intending for happiness, I want to leave

Leaving to an ultimate shelter forever

Being given up, My poor heart asked me, 

What is the shelter and who is the shelter

My answer

“You were outstanding in your college days…. But now, you are not writing in that way….why? Why are you not producing similar output even after having a lot of experience in life?” You are not drawing well, you are not singing well, you are not studying as you did and you are not even reading books which were your passion. What happened? and what caused for such a very drastic change? This is an often question whenever I meet my old friends, relatives or teachers. You also must have faced similar questions in your life.

People ask such questions to show their concern and consideration to us. They consider such comments and questions as part of positive stroke. Some people show a tendency to compare such comments to renaissance and revival of English society that paved the way to modernization. But, are they really saving their anticipated purpose? Let’s have a brief look on the reality behind the failure of a talented person. I would like to give a few examples from my own life to explain this context.

Recently a very close friend has gifted me a few set of pencils. I was very happy to receive them as I was badly in need of those pencils. But, I needed them and wanted those twenty years back. If I were having them as a student, I would have performed miracles in white paper and would have been known as a good painter. Instead, ‘the little me’ had to picture all my imaginations on the wall and in return I received a lot of abuse and slapping on my face. Unknowingly my little brain developed a fear that forbade me to draw.

Similarly, when I wrote in a different style, my parents, relatives and teachers created a block in my heart saying that “all writers are bad people and you as a girl cannot join that ‘dirty club’”. I then had to hide my imaginations in my own heart. As time passed the complicated experiences of my life made me forget that ‘I can write’. The singer in me also died in similar passion and I finally became a ‘mere me’ instead of becoming a painter, writer or singer. Today, I am very happy to receive these pencils and I am expecting these pencils to play the role of a reviving agent.

Twenty years back, I wanted them and if I got them at that time, I would have made wonders and today when I got it, I am finding it difficult to use them with the similar heart as my heart and brain are shaped with another pace. Today, what I want is something else and I have no idea when will I get it? I hope I may not require 20 more years when I will find it difficult to use it. Look at the nature. A plant needs the extra amount of nitrogen and zinc during its initial years, but after becoming a tree they require it in a very lesser quantity. I hope this is an answer for all those who ask questions about my inefficiency. This answer is not only for me, but for all those who face similar questions and situations.

Be loyal and watch Miracles in life

Irrespective of the differences in language, religion and region most of us share a common feeling in unanswered prayers. We often complain about having no answer for our prayers.  In the book of New Testament Bible, we are assured that all our prayers are answerable if we have strong faith without any doubt. After reading this also, we must be wondered again about unanswered prayers.

I have heard many people saying, “I believed without any doubt that my prayer will get answer, but there was none”. I also have faced the same issue several times and some time or the other, my vindictive heart kept myself away from God. This is not an exclusive case occurrence for me. You, my readers also might have experienced it at least once in life.  

Why?    What is the reason for this silence? Doesn’t God care to answer our prayers?     The Almighty must be facing thousands of similar questions on a daily basis.  Here, I have an answer for this question. All of us know about the resurgence of Lazar. From the New Testament, we can read that Lazar’s family was very close to Jesus. This made Mary and Martha, Lazar’s sisters to send a person for Jesus, when their only brother was sick. They expected the miracle worker to visit their house as always and heal their brother. But, Jesus did not turn out. He did not even care to enquire about Lazar’s sickness.

Exhausted Mary and Martha waited for a day and that evening, their brother expired. Mary really loved Jesus and she was a true disciple. Yet, she felt bad as Jesus did not even attend the funeral ceremony of her brother. She could not believe Jesus do such a merciless deed. That made Mary stays back at home when Jesus, visited their house on the 4^th day of Lazar’s funeral. Instead she sent her sister. She expected Jesus to come and console her. Mary failed to maintain her loyalty to Lord as she was looking at the situation.

Martha, to maintain the manners went outside her house to receive Jesus. But, Jesus instead of visiting his mourning disciple went to the grave yard of Lazar. Martha and others were surprised to see Jesus doing that. He asked them to remove the stone of the grave. Hearing this all were shocked. They tried to resist Jesus saying that the dead body must be in a bad condition as it is the 4^th day. But Jesus was adamant.

It was stinking, when they opened the grave. When they obeyed him, Jesus did not perform any magical deeds. He had not done big chanting or prayers. Instead he said only three words, “Lazar, Come out”. There emerged the living healthy Lazar. His body was covered with the clothes used to wrap the dead body. Mary was not there to watch this miracle.

It is true that she got her brother back, but she could not watch one of the most celebrated miracles of Jesus, when he was on earth. Jesus was, is and will be loyal to his promises, but Mary could not maintain her loyalty as she loved her brother more than Jesus. This is a lesson for us. Let us not repeat the same mistake again. Let’s have constant faith in Jesus. So that we can see his great miracles happening in our lives. 

Love and care on earth

The almighty sent love and care to earth to guard me.

On earth, I couldn’t realize them and stayed alone

Love and care then descended on earth as a man

The man of my life, the man who loves me the most

His love has no boundaries and the loveliest possible

His care is spectacular and is on par to every others

As he loved me the most, as he cared me the most

He always let me live, he always forgave my mistakes

He is my inspiration and he is my only reason to live

My heart frissons and eyes streams, when he is in pain

Thank God for this world that has trivial boundaries

In front, behind, left and right my boundaries are him

Wherever I go, I can see only one face, and that is his

My eyes pull in only his, Lord; I can’t bear pain in his eyes

Lord my prayer is to be with him and fill him with joy

I am thankful to God, for you listened my prayers

I Need You

Every morning, when I open my eyes, I woke up into a painful reality

The reality that you are not beside me to cuddle me towards you

White beautiful rays of sun do not bring happiness into my heart

For me, happiness is being with you and can’t find it anywhere else

The days are empty and meaningless to me as you are not with me

You are the person who fills my day with its real and gentle meaning

You are the light of my life and I can’t tell how much you mean to me

Each and every night penalizes me by making your absence more visible

When there is a colorful world outside, I can see a colorless world inside

 You are the color of my life; you have a charisma that still infatuates me

Living so many years together, I still am fascinated to be with you

Awaiting the day, when you will be here with me to wipe off my tear