You are the strength in my weakness

I was happy when I was in the comfort of your lap.
I was comfortable when I slept in your generous hands
I was consoled when your touch was there to console me
I was in peace when you were there to take care of me

Oh my Love, I don’t know to tell you how much you really mean to me
I don’t know to convey my feeling when you held me close
My soul was breach on a daily basis by your intense love
Your voice made my heart swing on the stars.
Your eyes were truly the window to my soul

I am not happy as I am not in the comfort of your lap.
I am not comfortable as I am not sleeping in your generous hands
I am not consoled as your touch is not there to console me
I am not in peace as you are not there to take care of me

Here in this lonely room, I am alone without you
Thinking of a day when you will come back for me
Thinking of a day when you will bring all the best in this world.
Here I count this loneliness as a beginning of great reunion

My eyes brings the image of pain in my eyes which are wet
Hot tears that flow from my eyes like a stream bear your name
The painful heart and tearful eyes make remember that I am week
Because it was you, only you, were my strength in my weakness

The life I had with you was golden and no One can ever take away the love we had
My modality was always perfect with you as you made me feel loved every time
I am looking forward to be with you again, as you became a habit to me
I once again want my life and days to be something special as you make it special

Oh…It Was Me

In a sweet stargaze, I did see a butterfly, with colorful wings

Wings with a lot of colors as if it is a rainbow of dark glosses

Being a rainbow of colors, butterfly was really attractive

I sensed an magnet in all those eyes..I don’t know why

The small flower plant was really happy to meet the butterfly

Being an adorer, the flower plant was magnanimous to invite the fly

The fly could not resist visiting the flower and enjoying sweet honey

While the fly imbibing juice, I felt the taste on my lips ..I don’t know why

The butterfly was happy and I sensed a real happiness aroundme

The happy mind, tasting lips and attracted eyes made the fly dance

I found a movement on my legs, I am also dancing religiously

Now I know the grounds for taste on my lips and the feeling of happiness

Now I know the grounds for taste on my lips and the feeling of happiness

As it was me and my unknown wishes made the butterfly fly

This revelation was amazing and I continued dancing and enjoyed the flower

As never before I could see my face in the rainbow of that beautiful fly

Then I realized, it was me and I shouted, oh…it was me…..

El Roi- “The God Who Sees Me”

Hagar is a woman chosen by God to deliver Ismail for Abraham, the chosen one. Even though she has been chosen for a special cause and exceptional purpose, Hagar was not mature enough to maintain the quality of being a part of a great mission. It is that immaturity led the entire world to end up in a great continuing war.

Hagar an Egyptian slave, when got power of becoming the second wife of Abraham in confidence of her own master Sarai, she failed to use that power in a proper way and misbehaved to her own master. This made Sarai annoyed and she harassed Hagar with her huband’s permission.

Hagar could not bear the bad treatment and left her master’s house without permission. As the mother of an infant, she was not supposed to make such a deed. She was expected to stay back and suffer everything for her child. But she could not.

Hagar, after leaving her house was happy for a few minutes because she believed there is no one to see and control her in this desert and she can leave a life of her own wishes. But suddenly, she could find desert as a villain. It had nothing good in hold for her and her child.

Hagar was collapsed…she was disappointed…she found that she is alone and she would die in this desert along with her child. Yet, she did not return and considered it more feasible to die rather than returning to her master’s place. Her pride does not let her choose the good way.

Hagar when crying met an angel, who consoled her and provided for her. The angel asked Hagar to go back to her master’s life and to live a life of obedience. Hagar could find happiness in angel’s words and returned under Angel’s guidance. She did not know the name of the God, who visited her. So she called him El Roi-  “the God who sees me”

Now, we need to think of ourselves. Can’t we find a Hagar in us, a person of immaturity? Hagar was lucky she could find her Elroi- the God who sees her. Let God, help us also find our Elroi- the God who sees us, as only he can save us and guide us in a proper way. 

From the life of Budha

Here is an incident from Budha’s life.

As part of a travel to spread his doctrine, once Gauthama Budha reached sravasthi. A very rich man came  there to meet Budha. He told Budha,

“ Lord, forgive me as I cannot treat you well as I am sick. I am suffering with obesity. I am not able even to move my body according to my will. Smaller motions cause larger pain in my body. This obstructs all my daily activities and so I want you to forgive me as I am not able to treat you well.  ”

Budha’s heart sunk in favour of that rich but poor man. He looked at the fat guy and asked in a sweet voice,

“Dear, do you want to know the reason for your sickness?”,

“Yes my Lord”, the fat man replied in a trembling voice.

Budha kept silence for a few seconds and started telling in a calm voice. There are five reasons for your sickness.
1.Over food
2.Over sleep
3.Laziness
4.Rude behavior
5.Lack of responsibility

The fat man looked like he accepted all Budha’s comments. Budha continued telling that you can get your health back if you can obey my instructions. To get rid of from your decease, at first you need to control your food, make use of your talents and finally make sure that your talents are being used for the well-being of the society.

The rich man accepted Budha’s words and followed them strictly. In less than six months he lost his weight and became healthy and enthusiastic. This made him happy and he visited Budha and told him,

“ Lord, I am healthy and happy. Now give light to my mind and soul”
 

Budha smiled at him and told, worldly man enriches his body where as spiritual man enriches his soul. The one who searches for worldly wealth destroys his soul and the one who searches God, gets long life and real joy.

I need your hand to close my eyes when I die

Human being is constructed in a way that he needs someone to love correct hin and guide him. Recently I read a quote some where which says that " If I go wrong,I need your hand to correct Me.If I am lost,I need your hand to guide me,If on fine day I die..I need your hand to close my eyes". When a human being gets denied of this, uncompromising need, there he ceases to be a human being and there we can see the birth of a terrorist. So try to spread love to be loved and to keep our nation secure from terrorism.

Secret of Happiness

Mankind longs for happiness. Poor man longs to have food, cloth, and shelter to stay happy. Rich man longs to have power and wealth to stay happier. The richest man has power but still longs for something which he does not even understand what it is. Suppose God is visiting you in next fifteen minutes, and then what will you ask for? Many of us might ask for more wealth, good life partner, wonderful kids and a magnificent life. But there is a man in Bible. King Solomon asked nothing else except wisdom. In dictionary, the meaning of wisdom is “the quality of being prudent and sensible”. The term quality itself has not a permanent standard. It differs according to individuals, then how can we standardize wisdom.

While thinking of it, I remembered a small story in the book “The Alchemist”, written by Paulo Coelho. As this story answered a number of my questions, I thought of sharing it with you. Enjoy the story without losing its essence, because 'the secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon.' The story follows.

"A certain shopkeeper sent his son to learn about the secret of happiness from the wisest man in the world. The lad wandered through the desert for forty days, and finally came upon a beautiful castle, high atop a mountain. It was there that the wise man lived.

 "Rather than finding a saintly man, though, our hero, on entering the main room of the castle, saw a hive of activity: tradesmen came and went, people were conversing in the corners, a small orchestra was playing soft music, and there was a table covered with platters of the most delicious food in that part of the world. The wise man conversed with everyone, and the boy had to wait for two hours before it was his turn to be given the man's attention. "The wise man listened attentively to the boy's explanation of why he had come, but told him that he didn't have time just then to explain the secret of happiness. He suggested that the boy look around the palace and return in two hours.

“‘Meanwhile, I want to ask you to do something,' said the wise man, handing the boy a teaspoon that held two drops of oil. 'As you wander around, carry this spoon with you without allowing the oil to spill.' "The boy began climbing and descending the many stairways of the palace, keeping his eyes fixed on the spoon. After two hours, he returned to the room where the wise man was. “‘Well,' asked the wise man, 'did you see the Persian tapestries that are hanging in my dining hall? Did you see the garden that it took the master gardener ten years to create? Did you notice the beautiful parchments in my library?' "The boy was embarrassed, and confessed that he had observed nothing. His only concern had been not to spill the oil that the wise man had entrusted to him.

" 'Then go back and observe the marvels of my world,' said the wise man. 'You cannot trust a man if you don't know his house.' "Relieved, the boy picked up the spoon and returned to his exploration of the palace, this time observing all of the works of art on the ceilings and the walls. He saw the gardens, the mountains all around him, the beauty of the flowers, and the taste with which everything had been selected. Upon returning to the wise man, he related in detail everything he had seen. " 

'But where are the drops of oil I entrusted to you?' asked the wise man. "Looking down at the spoon he held, the boy saw that the oil was gone.” 'Well, there is only one piece of advice I can give you,' said the wisest of wise men. 'The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon.' " The most famous quotes of Robert Frost, “The woods are lovely, dark and deep. But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep” appears to give a similar attitude. He saw the woods, but did not want to immerse in it as he had to travel a lot…. It is said that, this quotes were written in Jawahar Lal Nehru’s diary. Was Nehru a wise man? I don’t prefer to answer that question. History of India after 1964 will answer it.

I Bother

I bother! I bother about not me! But my mother

Here in this womb, I am safe…She keeps me safe

Every day she prays, Oh God…Save my kid….

I never listened her praying anything else….

When she suffers, she is tensed not about her

But about me…she is afraid that it may affect me

She drinks a lot of water as she knows…

She knows that I need nutrients…She has nothing else to feed me…

She loves me, I know it…she had pills to sleep

She told me that it is also to save me….

Her tension and pain may affect me….

Her life is a dilemma…She is in fuss…

I want to help my mother…but…

I am helpless….from her womb…

I cannot do anything….

I am only a little new zygote…

But someone please understands….

I have a soul…I am a person….

A person who can’t bear my mother’s pain

Because I love her a lot…..

She carries me….She needs to perch….

But she is not able to be in ease…..

She is running…to facilitate my birth….

At work place and home…she endures

My mother, ‘who is my home’ is in agony…

She is crying….her restless life makes me restless…

Her heart weeps when each drop of blood oozes

She again wants to live with my life…..

Mother…please don’t cry…. I am still alive…

Open your eyes and see…you don’t bleed now…

I am alive mother…I am alive….

I cannot go by leaving you…

I will never go mother…I will never go….

I am with you mother…I am inside you

To share your pain…. I will wipe your tears….

I will be yours…. I will be your happiness

As a zygote, I cannot assure you that…

I will provide for you….but mother…

I will support you with my little hands..

Little legs…Loving eyes……..

Mother, I will be the most loving child…

I will love you forever….rather….

I want to tell…I love you mother….

I will make you live for me….

You will forget all your pain….

You will forget all your pain once you see my face…

Now put your hands on your womb…

Feel me mother...Give me your hands to wipe your tears

Mother…Can you live for me mother….

I know that there is no one in this world to care you

There is no one in this world to love you…

But mother…live for me…I will come….

Oh God, I trust you….I devote my mother to you…

Please take care of both of us…..

We have none in this world other than you…

We are totally alone…..oh father….this is my prayer

Lord, me as a zygote…suffers a lot when she has nothing to eat…

I suffer a lot when she travels a lot….

I suffer a lot…when she cries a lot…..

I submit my pain to all those zygotes who suffer like me

Oh God, save all of us….Oh God…wipe the tears of all those mothers….

Lord give strength to all those mothers when you strengthen my mother

Please take care of all those zygotes along with me…so that….

We can come and console our mothers……

Lord, I am sure about one thing…..

I will become a good kid…..

I will become the pride of my mother

As I know how much she suffered to keep me alive

Yet! Yet I bother….I bother about my mother….

I want to give her all the happiness in this world….

But I can’t give it as I am a zygote…..

Here I cry without sound to the entire world….

Please…Please please…save my mother and me…..